11. His Love

My Savior's Love, shines like the sun with perfect light,

As from above, it breaks thru clouds of strife.

Lighting our way, it leads us back into his sight,

Where we may stay, to share eternal life.

Growing up I learned that when I misbehaved or disappointed my mom (which was a lot), I was unlovable. This is something I don't want to pass on to my children. I believe God's love, the Savior's love is perfect, unconditional, all around. 

Tonight I was angry because my 3 year old had peed in his underwear for the 3rd time. Maybe the frustration was because I'd just finished the laundry (is laundry ever really done) or maybe it was because I was moody and tired. As I looked in his eyes and disapprovingly asked him, "WHY!!?? Why?!!"

He slouched down against the wall and folded his arms on his bent knees and rested his head on his arms, "I've had a bad day." I shifted and realized that he was just having a bad day and he deserved love. The kind of love I wouldn't have gotten when I was his age. 

For the first time ever, I gathered him up in my arms and brought him where the rest of the family was. Then, I invited everyone to come group hug him to let him know how much he was loved. My husband reached out a hand and patted his back, "I'll give him a love pat." My daughter crowded around me seemingly embarrassed by the gesture. Matthew willing joined the circle. Their hesitation was good feedback for me, reminding me how I was showing up as my own mother. 

When I feel unloved, this is what I'll do from now on. Surround myself with everyone that loves me, so they can channel God's love bringing healing. I will do this anytime, anywhere and teach my family to do the same. Doing this as a family will fortify us and will allow us to glorify God. Isn't that why we are here? To remember God's love and to share it?